With all the celebrities dying recently, I have thought about those close to me that have died. I have only really cared about 3 deaths in my life, even though I have heard about thousands. I see on the news that many people have died, or tons of people are homeless, and all I do is digest the facts. I simply don't care about those people. No, I'm not a sociopath, there just seems to be this huge disconnect between me and people who I don't know directly. I felt for Marley (from the book and the movie) more than I feel about the vast amounts of homeless people in Minneapolis or the large amounts of people dying in the several wars in the world. I don't know what it is, but death that is not directly related to me does not affect me. Not at all, really. 

           This seems terrible to say right no, but I guess I can't change how I feel about the death and tragedy of people I don't know. Ignorance is bliss, they say. Well, I really think it is, because I see people around me get very sad when they read about death, but I don't even bat an eyelash. I feel like dropping the line from Lost, "who cares?". Well, after thinking about death for so long, I wonder why I don't care about the anonymous deaths. I thought about what makes me different from my family members and friends. I noticed that I play video games a hell of a lot more than most people I know, and I'm wondering if video games could be the source of this desensitization. 

          In games like Grand Theft Auto 4 I've killed tons of people and I don't really care because they're just characters that will re-spawn in a few minutes, and I realized that that is how I feel about anonymous death (the term I decided to use for the death of people that I don't know). More people will take their place later. How does this affect me? Why do I care? Why are you sad, it's not like you even knew him. 

          Those are some of the questions that run in my head when I think about anonymous death or talk to people about it. Still, though, even if video games have desensitized, I don't think that it's a bad thing. It's actually a good thing (in my opinion), because it kind of allows me to not get upset about things that won't really ever affect me. 

          I'm wondering if I'm the only one who has this weird trait, or if any of you guys find yourself not caring about anonymous death as well? Thanks for reading.